Pathing life and paving the tiles of happiness.

From an angle; life can seem like a linear line, going from A to B. Going forward, making milestones, memories, and on the other end of that line - the afterlife awaits. Twist the angle a bit and you will see the line curving in different directions, still going the same way, but branching out into small vines. Vines with no goal other than returning you to the point where you started branching.

Those vines create your life.

You try, you fail
You try again, you fail
You try one more time, you succeed

The success of an attempt paths the rest of that linear line.
It's been a rough road, but you've tiled your success with happiness, making that road solid and easy to walk upon again.

Enough with the allegories.
Last post was about dreams and it's ability to make you go somewhere.
Underestimating the power and rareness of a smile, I want you to understand what it really is.
I ended my last post with a quote about smiles, where I divide the smile my brain doesn't tell me to do, and what I do even though my mind disagrees.

Please understand that I am not a sad person, quite on the contrary. The beauty of a smile means way too much for me to put aside.

Not being able to figure out why I don't like the trivial stuff other people like, I try in an attempt to please them by doing things like partying, watching football and participating in random bullshit. I know I have to do this to keep what I have around me, making that smile on my face become a real smile on another persons face, and that is of course worth every hour it takes.
I'm in no position to cry about my life, but in a mind filled with too many questions concerning the words that are stuck between the lines, I am not able to enjoy what I have. And I hate my self for that.
I also know that these attempts, are attempts to please my self and trying to become what is known as normal. (Defining "normal" is a post for later.)

Mentioned above are the way I smile without coming to an agreement with my brain.
Luckily, by making others smile, I am able to create a real smile too. At the start of the chain, my apathic smile leads to other smiles, which is then led to me smiling with both my mind and my face.

I now know what it takes to make me smile both on the inside and on the outside.


Let the tiling begin...